toned, slim, motivational girls
the reason i haven’t offed myself yet is b/c im disgustingly large. i dont wanna end my life being this hulky size,i wanna experience the joys of bing tiny,maybe it’ll give me some incentige to stay
you’re going to lose 20 pounds by the end of the year no matter what
for the rest of April and all of May, we are to not binge. we are to have self control and work as hard as we can for what we want.
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reblog to make this come true.
like to recharge.
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cw:199 ugw:125 sw:240
It was a year long binge.Now it’ll be a year long calorie deficit. I eat enough to keep myself from blacking out,I try and avoid coffee and tea b/c the rush makes me sick. Water water water. Whenever I eat fast food my body usually rejects it through diarrhea.Cus my body hates mayonnaise and cheese and mcd’s lol. It’s oddly satisfying having diarrhea knowing everything is being released or the liquid parts of it. It’s annoying tho cus it erupts at the worst times LIKE THE WORST. I’m pretty sure I ate too much today (as always) but I was on my feet for six hours straight relying on six pieces of chocolate and water to keep me going. I made a veggie soup fir sinner but then I had a six inch roll with some eli meat on it.
Starving myself it felt like nothing,I only left because nothing was good enough to put in my mouth at the store tho my stomach was growling constantly,I’m proud of all the exercise I got today! I skip breakfast,usually lunch,I have dinner,I window shopped today,everything was either too big or too small. Kinda great not to be in the plus size section anymore tho I wish I could be a medium or a small already.I have such little patience for my slow transition back to who I was once.Idk whatever happened to full sweatshirts everything seems to be always cropped or open back.
What’s the point of a sweatshirt if it’s not gonna keep you warm?.Most of my high school clothes are barely fitting me still. My reflection disappoints me,reminds me of another of the mistakes I’ve made. Thighs are grotesquely fat not gonna show any sign of a gap anytime soon this I know.My stomach looks like ground chicken.
fat fat!
my muscles are covered in fat!
fat fat
my tendons are cushioned w/fat
fatfat my body is drowning in this body fat
my skin is the only barrier to my fat spillage.
fat fat all i see is fat. fat fat all i know is fat.since i was born i was fat. if i was stabbed the oil cholestorl and yellow gunky lard would spill out. fat is bad ew look at all this fat.
Finally closer to my original weight.fuck cruises man.i mever wanna go on one ever again.
I went on a cruise i did a gym for 15 min. Then sent to the steam room twice.i gained so much fucking weight even tho i ate with the small bowls and plates.the water was gross. Now im feeling twitchy i wanna eat kimchi.i had oreos and ice cream after eating two bowls of spaghetti and sausage and biwl of salad before that. Fuuuuuck. Then this morning i had a pb&j and water. I wanna cry. Im failing myself again. Am disgusted with myself
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